after touring one big round of nightmare , i am back in dis blog . yeah , i've broken up wif him . reason ? i nort even too sure myself . all i noe ish that . no matter wad happens . he's owaes in my heart . i may nort exist in his world animore . but , he's owaes in my mind . probably my wae of loving him scares him ? i duno . but i've NEVER cried so much before . and i've NEVER cried so worse in front of my mother before . in front of myself . was one person i've NEVER thought she existed . for all i haf ish HIM . budden i realise . "hey ! she's my mother !" shuld i thank HIM for bringing mie and my mum closer ? the fact ish . i still love HIM . i carnt bring myself to forget him like ani of my ex . i've never been so serious in one relationship before . probably like my mother said . take it as experience . but can i ? i dont wish to decieve myself . i noe my limit . the fact ish i carnt . for the first time in my life . i've cried so much that if i continue crying , i would flood my house . the last time i've cried was when i'm in pri 6 . when my grandma passed awae . i've never cried that much after that . till todae . 1 more hr and 15 mins will be our 2nd month and 5th dae anni . everything ended so fast . can i cope my future without him ? probably yes . but , it'll never be the same animore . can i smile like how i smiled before ? i wish i could , i carnt . if loving him ish a crime , den pls , put mie to death will iue ? i plead guilty . i've lost interest in anithing . wadever it is , i've no interest in finding out . maybe . i'm gonna do it . MAYBE .

GOODBYE BLOG ~ ( ure the best )

*smile while iue can ; cherish wadever iue haf*
♥ You're who I really miss.