well , i've been thinking for the past few DAYS of what am i gonna blog about . as EXPECTED , my mind's BLANK . :X okays , i think , i shall get STARTED my updates . ==''

well , time FLIES . it's been ONE year plus since he left me on the 16th of FEB . i don't know why . the MORE i wanna open my heart and accept OTHER guys , the more i found my heart flying back to HIM . it's as if , the LOVE that we've shared . had been only YESTERDAY . & i really don't want HIM to leave . sighs ` but , he still LEFT .

God , why must you make a fool out of me ? Why must you cruely take away what's belonged to me in the past ? & why don't you return him to me ? Please , don't take him away from me , & i need him . I really do .

& , how i wanna you to find your way back to my heart .
♥ You're who I really miss.

well , i'm back from my chalet . actually , i was back YESTERDAY . the chalet was the WORST one i've ever been . they dare to call it CLASS chalet when they invited so many OUTSIDERS . and we've paid our $$ and what we've get ? NOTHING ! so naturally , there's no PICTURES to post . i was really too ANGRY to take any pictures . okays , enough of the CHALET . now on to SOMETHING that's caught my attention recently . (:

had watched The Sky Love for 10 times today . and i never fails to TEAR everytime i watched it . and i ADMIT . i really do ENVY those couples we see on the streets everywhere . so , why don't those PERFECT fairytales happen on me ? it PAINS my heart to let him go . even if we're to THINK of the past and ENJOY the moments we've spent together , EVERYTHING's not gonna be the same as it is . & it PAINS my heart to see you CRYING in the middle of the night . but not for ME , instead , another girl who had CAPTURE his heart . & how i really WISH , he'll be back in my arms SOMEDAY .

& , it's just a fantasy of my own wishful part .
♥ You're who I really miss.

somehow , i find myself lazy to update my blog . =='' by the way , i've found my passion back to audition ! :X & i love my boyfriend , -XIAOHEIx3~ . :X well , i'm going for my chalet soon and i'm lazy to update more . :X shall update a long entry once i'm back from my chalet . & i'm gg for one day only . =='' so i'll update again on friday ! with pictures of my bbq . (:

Happy 17th Birthday , My Dearest Girlfriend . <3

♥ You're who I really miss.

well , as expected . the changes of the weather made me sick once more . all thanks to you , god . i nearly missed my class chalet . luckily it was postponed to thursday . so , i may be able to attend it . i'll take pictures that will flood my digital camera ! :X but seriously , i hate taking pictures . =='' guess i'll be so busy EATING throughout the bbq . :X who cares ?! as long as i have fun . well , i'm tired from eating the medicine . gonna catch my BEAUTY sleep now . :X
♥ You're who I really miss.

Me : " eh turtle , i ask you ar . you got girlfriend de ar ? "

Him : " Hmmm mei you...why..? "

Me : " o.o then your blog that laopo ? "

Him : " a....gan lao po lai de ._.so not count ar real.. "

Me : " o.o i see . 白担心一场 =='' "

Him : " Hahas...huh why cai dan xin.?wat u mean orhhs...? "

Me : " hmms , actually . The better i know you , the more i realise what an amazing person you are . I've really grown to like you a lot . "

Him : " o.o a...like me as wat...i also like u as fren:) "

Me : " i don't really know you pretend not to know or you really don't know . i just wanna get this off my mind and tell you how i really feel . so , the results don't really matter to me . (: i can only say , i feel a lot much better to get it off my load . (: "

Him : " Ohh...but hopefully i wanna be alone for time being...since sku and cca and mani more stress me out le...hmmm but for sure theres more boy better den me for sure..:) "

Me : " really , if that's the problem . waiting's not a problem for me . so no matter what you gonna say or do , it won't change my decision . (: i can only say that , i truely wishes you all the best . "

Him : " Hmmm don wait for me...as i think base on my situation now not fit to hav one...u will find someone better de:) "

Me : " really , i don't mind . you can don't like me like i do . but you can't stop me from liking you . "

Him : " Hmmm..but realli...i won't force...but i shall sure theres someone u will find someday hav the same feeling u treat him and he will treat u:) "

Me : " okay . enough of all these . my house's flooding soon . "









and right after i sent that last message , i cried like i saw my boyfriend died in front of my eyes . probably we're not really meant to be .
♥ You're who I really miss.

well . yesterday , i decided to tell terance how i really feel . expected , he rejected me . but that's not the main point . i've already decided to wait for him . x) even if he's not gonna like me as much as i like him , nothing's gonna change how i feel about him . it's probably kind of silly of me . waiting for a guy who's not going to turn back and smile at me . his smile and everything is what catched my heart . if i'm gonna let go of this wonderful guy in front of me , i curse myself to not to be able to smile like i used to be .

TERANCE is loved .
♥ You're who I really miss.

it's been quite a time since i last updated . had been kind of rotting recently . cos , holidays are here ! it's 3 weeks long . :D and nxt week , kinda tied up wif my class chalet . xD well , been playing quit lots of games recently . comp's gonna BOMB lerh . :X well well well . hoping , that guy's reading dis post . so i dont haf to master all my courage to tell him . TERANCE NEO JUNYANG , i love ue . x)

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♥ You're who I really miss.

captions are eaten by mie . :X

♥ You're who I really miss.

sighs `

now at sch uhs . having ina lesson . but , my whole mind's all occupied uhs . just duno wad's going on . how i wish i could throw everything behind mie and start everything anew . if he could just threw every memories we shared and start anew wif a new gal , den whie carnt i ? it's just too hard for mie to leave everything . it pains my heart to see the guy i love in another gal's arms . wadever that's been said or done are past . he threw awae a 3 years relationship and he threw mie awae . the past we shared , is merely trash to him in his eyes . no matter wad happens in the future , i still carnt let go of wad happened 2 years ago . starting anew seems impossible animore . how i wish i could rule my heart rather den the other wae round . i wanna start my life anew wif WILLIE . i wanna love him like the wae i noe he will . probably , WILLIE will gif mie up before i do . x(

& i truly long for ure love .
♥ You're who I really miss.

sighs `

okays , i admit uhs . i really carnt let go of wad happened 2 years ago . i just carnt believe that he could just throw our 3 years of relationship aside and start anew wif a new gal . he claimed that he knew mie . he claimed that he understands mie . he claimed that he misses mie . he claimed that he loves mie . & he claimed that he needs mie . although there's dis wonderful guy here for mie and i truely love him . & i really swore . i'll love him wif all i haf . although it's hard to forget wad i've been thru , i believe . WILLIE is all i need .

& the nite is long ; but i long for ue .
♥ You're who I really miss.

sighs `

i'm really so so so so fcuking fan . wad for i'm hanging on to a memory that died off 2 years ago . it really hurts my heart to see him sad . i just carnt close my eyes to tell myself that he isn't the one i care . all these years , i've been longing for his return . but , even if he returned , who's gonna pay for the 2 years we've lost ? how i wish , that 3 years would never ends . our 5 years of relationship . 3 years of couples and 2 years of pure strangers . i've told myself , everythings's over . he dont love mie now . but wad's the use ? i find myself waking up in the middle of the nite crying my eyes out . apologizing's nort enuff to make up the 2 years i've lost . just wad wrong haf i done ? whie must he treated mie in die wae . how i wish , i could turn back the time .

FCUKOFF .
♥ You're who I really miss.

it's all the past now . <3



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the 4 crazy gals . <3



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♥ You're who I really miss.