i'm actually thinking of what to update while i'm updating . had not been blogging a decent post for a very very very very very very very very very very very very very very long time . recently had been ps-ing girlfriend lur . so SORRY lur . but what had happened recently had been driving me nuts . although i know . my dad cares . and to say the truth , i don't blame him at all . all i can blame is myself . i should have told him earlier about BABY & me . now that everything had been like this , all i can do is try to make my dad see the good side of BABY . it's the least i could do . BABY also said it himself . he had lost the love from his dad . he don't want my dad to HATE him too . i had been thinking about it for a very long time . i spent one whole night thinking . all these could be avoided de . it's all becos of my stupid-ness . i spoilt everything . BABY said it's his fault , he's actually trying to AN WEI me . i know it's all my fault . i knew it . i cannot help holding back my tears anymore . and for the second time , i cried in front of BABY . no matter how strong i may look on the outside , i still can't take it anymore . holding back my tears seems so difficult for me already . we shared many beautiful memories together . i really don't want everything to end so quickly .

So , please god . Grant us more time together . ) :
♥ You're who I really miss.