haiix. useless w/o euU.

2008-12-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

imma tired of life

When i last posted? Quite long. I'm so tired of everything already. ): Audi & audi & audi. Changed my ign to ~HOLYAIAI~. Happened so much things in school & life. LAONIANG FUCKING TIRED ALREADY LA. STOP TROUBLING LAONIANG WITH THOSE LIFELESS & USELESS MATTERS. ARGHS.

2008-11-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

Someone interesting with nothing to post. :O

1. Who's The Person Tag You: Candy nuer.

2. Relationship Between You And Her: My char bor kia.

3. Five Impression: Naughty, playful, weak, cute & pretty.
ps; of course la. i give birth de lei. xD

4. If She Become your Enemy: Whoa! She'll be striked by lightning. LOL~

5. What Will You Say To The Person You Like Very Much: _|_ off & die.

6. Characteristic I like about yourself: 个性直接

7. Characteristic I Hate about myself: Voice too loud. LOL ~

8. For the person whom I hate, you'll say: Try to like me a lil this time. ^^v

9. What do peeple feel about you: How i know. -.-

10. Your crush: Mr NCW.

11. Most ideal people you wanna be: No troubles.

12. Pass This To 10 ppl:
1. JingYu
2. Janicia
3. YingYing
4. Cherie
5. Poyo
6. Brandon
7. GekLou
8. BoonEe
9. ZiXin
10. Sarah

13. if 5 & 7 Were Together (Poyo & GekLou): Gosh, I can't imagine it.

14. Who no.5 like (Poyo): Too many to list pl0x. LOL~

15. What color those number 9 like ? (Zixin): Wo bu zhi dao. ):

16. Say something to number 8 (BoonEe): Very long bo see you le. Miss you la nuer. ):

17. Who is Number 2 (Janicia): 臭男人!

18. Talk about no.3 (YingYing): She's crazy.

19. Who is no. 10 best friend (Sarah): Not sure. D:

20. Who is th sexiest among all: Sarah Sweet! <3

21. What color does no.4 like (Cherie): Red.

22. Is no.4 Single (Cherie): No. :O

23. Your Relationship With No.1 (JingYu): My gf. (:

24. Are 5 & 6 Best Friends? (Poyo & Brandon): Once was.

25. Number 9 Surname (ZiXin): Lim

26. No.7 nickname (GekLou): Idk.

27. Say Something To No.8 (BoonEe): Thought just now say le. -.-

28. Say something to no.9 (ZiXin): <3 (:

29.Who does No.1 admire? (JingYu): Uh, someone in outer space. (:

30. Where Does No.1 Live? (JingYu): BoonLay.

31. 10 of them know who you like: Not really. :O

32. Say something to no.6 (Brandon): Arkward. -.-

33. 10's spouse (Sarah): Keiko? :O

Tags Replied:

nicx: aiyo, dun say my name oso la. all those above pics is u and jy draw de, acept the crocoach
nicx: ha.. :p shemale.. funny siol.
You also have hor! You gave so much ideas. And you're lucky that I didn't ss those that you drew. ._.

♥ Cherie: bian tai ss-es siol !
Cool man! :D

I'm still waiting for you. ): Mr.NCW<3

2008-11-25T14:50:00.004+08:00

An update all tiko pehs will like it. (:

Currently playing msn w gf & jan at school. Fucking funny. I shall upload photos. (:

LOL !

2008-11-23T18:17:00.002+08:00

My heart belong to NCW.

O.O Nothing much on a boring sunday. I was practically playing facebook & audi the whole day. So I'm really mother fucking boring. :X Well, anyway. I go continue facebooking. :X Hees.

Tags Replied:

AIKO ♥: SWEET SWEET :] finally found your blog x: whys can't comment your fs th :c misses!
Sweet! Idk eh, I bo log in fs le. Very de laggy. ><

peeky aka guanyinma: yo kaijing <3333333
GYM! :X <333

♥ Cherie: ng chuan wei is who siol love. LOL.
Lol love. He my ex lai de. ._.

yiing: mai listen but very nice
Lame shit siol you. :X

8 Months of sweetness. <3

2008-11-22T19:39:00.002+08:00

A tiring day. D:

Just back from work only. So fucking tired okay! But today was overall a happy one. (: Anok BABI! Keep on calling me babi. D: ANOK'S A VERY FAT RED BABI. :X Then ass siol, he keep on hitting my backside while I hit his breast. LOLS. Then I por auntie and tell her that I wanna to go home early. >< Cos really fucking tired. :X I go watch tv le. :D

Tags Replied:

pin: hi kaijing ^^ loveya, takecare o
Hellos PINPIN! ^^v

natalie.: yeah lor. very very long nv see dao you lerh.
natalie.: Brandon is a nooob ! ;D
natalie.: see ya soon when school reopens. maybe will see you in your school ;D.
Haha~ When you school reopen and you're free, give me a call! (:

--KitKymm: KAIKAI <33! :DD
Hellos MIKA! <3 ^^v

yiing: yue ting yue hao ting and sad!
Lol, sad mai listen la. funny.

Ps ; I Love Mr Ng Chuan Wei since 190207.

2008-11-20T20:05:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday, BKJH.

Sleeping the whole day, fucking moodless. Don't bother me, fuck off.

Tags replies:

CH♥R: HII KAIJING ^^ linked you.
Kk. :O

Inez: Hi keehong :@ link me :@
Sure keehong! <3

Ps ; Chances doesn't come by easily.

2008-11-19T10:33:00.002+08:00

Another stupid and meaningless update. :O

I guess I can only update my blog in school. I don't have to motivation to update at home. :O All I think at home's audi. Yesterday went to bunk to find Babyleen, JH and Brandon. On the way, Jan was testing my knowledge on songs. I am suppose to sing out 3 songs of the artist he requested. My brain nearly BOMB-ED. The most difficult one was, Jacky Cheung. Omg lor, I don't even know what are his songs names. ._. So I gave up. Then we went home quite early as GF wanna to go JP to buy her earphones. Then while shopping at JP, nuer called me. She asked me where am I and said that she was at the library. Wanted to meet her up, but she need to go home already. So, we continued shopping. GF bought her earphones at Popular, CD Rama. COST $57 PL0X! Lol. So exxxxxxxxx. Then went home le. At night, keep on disturbing Val Idol at audi. * Rub Nose. He jitao kick me out of the room. LOLS. Then he himself also very disgusting. GYM's cute. (: Meeting her at bunk later. ^^v

Tags Replied:

Brandon: Where got blue black...eu show me )#*#%)!#_)%_!#
Brandon: At Least Wake Me Up At Boonlay Mar Ppl No Have Good Sleep End Up A Bangla Wake Me Tell Me Reach Boonlay
How I know you so fast fall asleep already. Somemore you say pei me till BoonLay. And fucked it, you yesterday bo pei me. -'-

nicx: haahahah. pineapple tarts.
nicx: u bake de. got add ingredient boh?
Shh, don't tell anyone I make de ma. :X I got add a lot extra ingredient siol. Got my noseshit, earshit, eyeshit, my backside shit, and my jibai juice. LOLS.

Ps ; I just need a lil of your love. D:

2008-11-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

A stupid and meaningless update.

Currently, I'm rotting in front of my class' computer. Today's theory lessons and I'm bored to death. Nothing much happened. Woke up late and GF also woke up late. So I waited for her at the interchange to go to school together. Breakfast was at Mr.Bean. (: Never fail to finish off their breakfast without any leftovers. Although their pineapple tarts really sucks to the core, I still love Mr.Bean. (People who know me well enough should know why I hate Mr.Bean's pineapple tarts. LOLS.) Then after buying breakfast, I walked past YaKun Loti shop. LOLS. I saw my one and only idol a.k.a Gary Ong Yong Chuan having breakfast in there. So i texted him to say i saw him. (: Then we took the same train together with other friends. They alighted at Eunos for interview. :O Maybe interviewing at MDIS. LOLS. After reaching school, played badminton for awhile then lunch le. Had malay food for lunch. Then went to slack awhile then come back class le. :O Now here I am, crapping. Lol. I go do other things le. ^^v

Tags Replied:

Brandon: FK EU WHEN I BECOME _l_
Brandon: I KNOW WHO THE SISTER I SAW ALSO =.=
Brandon: EU FKING LEFT ME SLEEP ON THE TRAIN AT BOONLAY _l_
Brandon: FKING MAKE ME WAKE UP JUST TO GET BACK MY BUNK CARD _l_
Don't be shy to admit that you are. Lol. You're not this shy on MRT yesterday. And as for that "sister", don't mention about her anymore. I don't wish to rake up the past. And you're the one who said that you only pei me till boonlay, and that you're going to CCK to work. Now machiam like my wrong. And I so good, help you keep your bunk card. You still scold me. Sua la hor. Fuck off. Angry you le.

♥Cherie: husband siol love! ;x
This husband no use le. Keep on abusing me de. My whole arm let him hit until blue black. LOLS.

Ps ; Forever baby, I'll remember you.

2008-11-17T19:49:00.004+08:00

Brandon Ku Jun Hao's my husband!

Oh my. Today school ended early, as KarChuan cheated my feelings. Then we went to have our breakfast at school canteen. We thought that the pasta uncle would change for the better, but he disappointed me again. Then we went outside school to slack with Babyleen. She's there cos her family at Blk 57 there baibai. Then slack awhile, Brand came. Then we went to Sim Lim Square together. Shopped for Ying's MP3, Gf's Earphones and my keyboard. Then we went back to Bugis junction to walk walk. Then went home~ On the train, Brand became my husband siol! Omg lor. Although it's a joke na, I'm still really fucking stunned. The way Brand talk, really scare me lor! He anyhow, tell my gf that I'm her only woman. LOLS. I guess I'm gonna to have phobia le. LOLS~

Tags Replied:

♥Cherie: nice blogskin love. :]]
Lol, ty love. Your blog link's so cool. :X

weichieh: cause you drunk
Please lor, you also drunk like one dog pl0x. xD

Natalie ;D.: hellooo skies! tagged ;D.
Hellos Natsx. Very long since I last saw you. See ya soon. (:

YukiminO: LOVE LOVE! finally found ur blogeh LOL
LOVE noob la! :X Hees~

Oh ya, I stumbled upon my ex "sister" de blog. I saw what she wrote about me. I shall not say what she said. I don't understand. I trust her so much despite people warning me about her. And I've got my deserts. She said I pushed all the blame to her? Oh god. Everyone know who's the one in the wrong. If she assume that I'm the one, why don't she point it out that day? Instead of blabbering so much on her blog. It's her blog, I won't care. She can say what she want to. So, just be it. I'll just take it that I've been trusting the wrong person all along. Take care. (:

2008-11-15T15:41:00.002+08:00

Well, yesterday reached school quite early. >< Saw boss at bedok inter. Then wait for bus together ~ After taking mini test, went to bunk to meet JH & Brand. Played package, my backside rotted. LOLS. Saw both lovelove and their gn family. Lols, so cute please lor. Then slacked outside bunk with jh, babyleen, val, kira and his friends. Then jh that assh0le. Ps me to go home alone. ): So I decided to ps him today. >< Let him go himeself. WAHAHAHAHA. :X

Maybe, I ought to let go now.

Ps ; I'm sick and tired of you lie-ing.

2008-11-13T20:24:00.002+08:00

Today's thursday! And I'm so happpppppppy. Cos no lessons on thursday. >< And I'm sick like a dog pl0x! Had been coughing, sneezing, and feeling feverish. ): So fucking xin ku can! But now although feeling better, still got drowsy feeling. Machiam I'm drunk like that. Lols. But thanks for the concern people, I'm fine. ^^v Today keep on audi-ing. Find cpl~ Lols. But to no avail. All xdd lor. Not xdd then those about 20 de, a bit crazy. I'll never ever meet normal guys in audi. Rofls. All about that~ I'll go poop already. :X

Maybe, I've been thinking too much. You occupies my mind too much. The song's dedicated to you, my love. I wish you happiness. (: Whatever I can wish, I wish for the best for you. ^^v You'll be fine, without me.

Ps ; I know you are, the one for me ~

2008-11-10T19:50:00.007+08:00

An update about JiaHao's 17th Birthday!

Okays, I was being probed about my LONG update i promised. And so here I am! ^^v Sitting in front of my CHIO computer blogging about everything about JH's birthday. Don't complain if my post gets naggy & long. :X

4th & 5th of November.

Today would be our shopping day! (: We're suppose to shop for JH's bbq de food. But we went to Sheng Siong empty headed. We don't really know what to buy as we had a very tight budget. So JH phoned his dad to transfer another $100 to increase our budget. But, ohmegosh. We still don't know what to buy yet! So we walked around for a few rounds. And decided to buy the hotdogs first. :X And oh my. Wasn't JH greedy?! He told us to buy a lot of hotdogs! Then we bought the SUPERLONG sotongs. And JH's favourite! STINGRAYS! :X Then we bought a lot of chicken wings. :X Then we bought a lot of other necessities. (: When we saw that reciept, we were stunned. It was FUCKING LONG! $214. :X Plus the satay, $70. Ohmegosh. Then after that, we went for dinner. >< HOR FUN HOR FUN HOR FUN! :X Then we cab home le~ Jan stayed over at my house to help me prepare the chicken wings. ^^v Then we went to sleep! I fall asleep first. :X And ohmegosh, I snored. >< Too tired le la. :X Then next day, after school, Jan went to work. Then at night, he come my house to stay again. And I snored again! :X Hees. * DREAMING OF .. Lol~

6th of November, Thursday.

YAY! Today's JH de birthday. I woke up very early and i dugged Jan to wake up. :X Then I played comp awhile then JH & Boon reached my house while Jan went home to bath and prepare. Then we cabbed to Jan's house downstairs to fetch him to go ECP together. :X Then Boon damn jibai siol. I feeling damn tired then he mai let me sleep. Keep on disturbing me. T_T Then I jitao lie on him. LOLS. Then nb, he keep on hitting my head. Pain lor. T_T Then after reaching ECP, we carried everything to the pit. FUCKING HEAVY okays?! Then we settled everything. Then saw Brand. Okay so and so. Nothing much special happened. Then at night, VODKA TIME! :X Wahahaha. I admit I was kinda drunk. So I was practically laughing my head off the whole time. So I don't remember much thing after that. But I do remember. Weichieh was being thrown to beach by Brand & JH. This is their conversation.

WC: Brandon ar, why must you waste you parents' money to buy cigarettes? Haiyo.
( * WC shaked his head )
( * Brand stared at WC )
( * Brand looking very fucked up )
( * Brand grabbed WC )
Brand: Lai JH, we throw him into the sea.
All: WOOHOO! THROW THROW THROW!

lol-ed~

I kept on laughing and laughing. Then WC lost one of his slipper on the beach. :X So WC, Shirely and me went looking for it. At last I saw it. Then JH gave WC his towel to dry himself. Then WC did a very kiam pah de thing. He stuffed one end of his towel into his LJ! Omg. Then another end into his ass. JH was kinda disgusted. And poof! WC was being thrown into the sea again. WAHAHAHA. Then he did an unexpected thing. I can only show you the picture. I don't know how to type it out. LOL.

HAHA! He was being snapped shot by Brand. :X Then I went to 7-11 with Ying to buy more vodka. :X Woohoo. We chatted & sleep to spend the night. >< Really had a fun time pl0x! :X

To LOL:

Although everything that happened that night was short, I didn't forget everything. It was the very first time I had that kind of feeling while talking to you. That's the first time I've ever talked to much to you. And throughout these few days, all I think is you. I really don't know why. I really don't. And on saturday, I can feel that you're kinda avoiding me. I'm sad, but what can I do? I could only sit there looking silently at you. It's okay. (:

I remember everything of that NIGHT. ):

Ps; I wish I could tell you that I Love You.

2008-11-03T18:11:00.002+08:00

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i'm just so useless like i've always been. -'- off and whatever laaaa. just so be it, i guess it's all fated.

2008-10-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

I guess, my heart's probably never the same anymore. I miss him, I really do. But what can I do? Other than seeing him playing with everyone of my peeps, I can seriously do nothing. And I'm always the only one being left behind. And nothing's helping when my close friends are also playing with him. It makes me feel even lonelier. Sighs, I guess, it was wrong right fromt he moment I know him. But what can I do? I've given my heart to him. He should not be the one I really loved, but yes he is.

S H A W N, you'll never be forgottened.

2008-10-24T09:13:00.000+08:00

Whatever, just -'- off.

2008-10-17T08:49:00.003+08:00

Alrights. Disregard that I suck cock pl0x. I think I'm gonna die soon. LOL. It's random, folks. Recent updates had been updated in school. So I kinda run out of what to update. Maybe I'm losing brain juice. O.O I'm recently reminiscing those happy moments with C. It's been 1 YEAR 8 MONTHS & 1 DAY since he left. And all those that's left of him with me, are his memories and a lil piece of paper. Maybe it's just a matter or time. But at least, we've got those 2 months of memory to reminisce. And again, today's friday. The day i dreaded the most. Coop up in my room, emoing whatever shit i have. It's 8:50am already. And my class only have 7 students emonig when lessons start at 8am. -.- Fucked up school. Fucked up everything.

ps; i'm sorry that ily.

2008-10-15T09:52:00.002+08:00

I truely getting very bored. D: Bored of life, bored of school, bored of games and whatsoever. Maybe time passes too quickly that I'm getting so fucking tired already. The only thing I'm looking forward would be my exams & jh's birthday ba. Hopefully after my exams, I can concentrate on working. * Squished face. EWW. I'm dying. D: Sighs.

FUCK OFF & DRINK YOUR MUM'S BREAST MILK LA.
- SUCK YOUR MAMA P*SSY.

2008-10-08T22:27:00.002+08:00

Life still goes on. D:

I realise. I do made a mistake turning back to him. It all appears that he's just using me all along. He made me appear more stupid than ever to other people. Maybe that's love. And I regretted it. But forget it, I'll just treat everything as a nightmare maybe? D: What more can I do? * Starts cursing his ancestors and whatever * <- LOL. Well, I'll just keep everything out of my mind. :D Prepare for Jiahao's birthday bbq! At first, I thought maybe a mere 20 people are going. But when jh told me who's going just now. I was damn fucking shocked. * Gong dai gong ji bai face * Double the number I've expected. Heng I haven't book the bbq pits. >< Well~ I go pang sai already. =X Buay tahan. Du zi tong. * Squished face, run to toilet. Sit on my lovely toilet bowl && .. UHHHHH~ PLIACK! * * SHIOK face *

LOL!!
ps; today bo eat medicine, so a bit ki siao.

2008-09-21T21:32:00.003+08:00

Maybe, I made the wrong decision to turn back. But what can I do? I still misses him so much. It really hurt my heart. I really don't know what to do anymore. I could only bury in my pillows every night. Handling everything quietly. Hearing baby cries every night are driving me crazy. I just need someone to tell me. I didn't make the wrong choice to give up. But, sighs. Words of encouragement are always difficult.

ps; no matter what, i'll always be here. right here waiting.

2008-09-18T17:57:00.002+08:00

Hell, I'm feeling so fucked up right now. Had not been updating for the past don't know how many days, I apologize. I just don't feel the rush to update about anything. Happened quite a number of things that got me thinking. But I shall not say what is it all about. I'm already feeling fucked up enough and I don't need anymore troubles & headaches.

2008-08-24T20:40:00.001+08:00

LOL . Damn funny bodoh . Click for bigger image la ! Hee .

( Conversation with JiaHao . )

2008-08-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

I caught a fish alive ! :D

Today , nothing much eh . After school , slacked at canteen with wahab , girlf and ying . Cos it's raining ! Awwwwww . And we're talking about hair . Any kind of hairdo . And i tied MIRU . LOL . Maple's miru . It's cute ! Hee . After the rain stopped , we went to queensway shopping centre . Ying wanna to pierce her ear and girlf wanna to buy hollow pin to pierce her tongue . I have nothing in my mind but i got another piercing on my right ear instead . :D 8th piercing . 1 more to full house . (: Scary siol . Ying's 3rd piercing slanted ! I was god damn afraid that mine will also be . But luckily , nope . ^^ Then we headed home after eating mac . (: ♥

6 7 8 9 10 .

2008-08-17T17:36:00.002+08:00

Maybe , Probably , Possibly

Yesterday , again yet a misunderstanding with bi . I just texted bi that i was waiting for his reply . And he replied a " What ? " to me . And i replied asking why he didn't reply my message . Again , an one word replied from him . " So ? " I was like . WTF ? Why is he like this . But yet , i said ILU to him . Expected , he said IHU . And i spend my whole night crying like a dog . =O But just now , he cleared everything . It's his parents doing . - - That's the problem with parents . Children don't have the privacy they deserved . But oh well , i've gotta learn to forgive and forget . It's all the past . (: But now , i love bi more . :D

I love you more today than i did yesterday . And i'll love you more tomorrow than i do today . And the cycle goes on . I'm just so simply in love with you .

2008-08-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

You Are An Attention Whore

There's no doubt about it, you'll do almost anything for attention.

You crave fame, recognition, and your own entourage of adoring friends.

And when it does feel good when you are in the spotlight, you feel pretty down when no one notices you.

You're so desperate for attention, you're likely to be well known for the wrong reasons. And it's no fun being the Paris Hilton of your social group.

You come across as: Dramatic and needy

People may wrongly think you're: Completely self centered and self absorbed

Are You An Attention Whore?

2008-08-16T21:18:00.002+08:00

An empty heart says it all

Went to Botanic Garden today . :D To support my sister for her dance . (: Took 30mins of bus from Clementi to reach there . Botanic was damn fucking smelly mansxzxzxz . Smelt like zoo , omfg . We walked for quite a very long time then we found where they are . We stayed very very long before we headed home . Darn fucking tired . =O

1 2 3 4 5 .

2008-08-15T10:03:00.002+08:00

My bi's got a perfect body and the most handsome face in the world :D

Aww , decided to blog now at school since later go home not free already . Yesterday had some misunderstanding with bi . But last night , cleared everything le . (: I can only say , i love my bi so much ! :D * Silly lil smile . He's so fucking cute mansxzxzxz . Hees , i don't know what more to blog already . =O Cos my brain's fucking empty except it's fully occupied by bi my beloved ! :D

I love my fucking handsome bi so muchsxzxzxz . :D

2008-08-15T10:02:00.002+08:00

My bi , my love :D

Your Kissing Purity Score: 63% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

You Are a Sensitive Kisser

For you, kissing is a way to connect

And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy

It may take you a while to kiss someone...

But when you do, it's total fireworks

You Act Like You Are 25 Years Old

You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.

You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.

The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere.

You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant.

From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

Your Seduction Style: Sex Pot

Tradionally known as a "siren", "rake", or "femme fatale." You exude sensuality.

And while your sexiness is part of what makes you an incredible seducer...

Your ability to make others feel sexy is what really makes your seduction skills shine.

Most people don't feel attractive or desired enough - a need which you tap into.

You have the ultimate sex appeal, and getting attention from you is a total self esteem boost.

Your confidence is contagious, and you help others unleash their own sexuality.

Your sex pot seduction skills are so intoxicating that you can get away with... well, almost murder.

Lovers feel like your sensuality is in your blood, so it's only natural if you flirt a little.

And if you stray, that might be okay as well - as long as you make your lover still feel hot.

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.

You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.

Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.

In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.

But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!

There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.

You've loved, lost, and loved again.

You have had a wide range of love experiences.

And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.

You tend to be the one with more power.

You aren't a total control freak in relationships..

But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.

You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.

No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.

You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.

And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.

In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."

You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.

But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes...

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Stripper Song Is

Closer by Nine Inch Nails

"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you

You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you

Help me I broke apart my insides, help me Iíve got no

Soul to tell"

When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.

You Are Seductive Flirt

Smoldering hot, you don't really flirt. You seduce.

For you, flirting is just foreplay.

You don't flirt unless it's going somewhere.

You have one goal in mind when you flirt... And you usually get it!

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

Your Love Style is Ludus

You like to think of love as the ultimate game

And you love to play... even if it means lying a little

You're a bit afraid to be close, and you don't get too attached

A serial dater, you tend to date a few people at once

And it's all good, until one of your sweeties finds out!

Bi's my fucking handsome love . ^^

2008-08-14T14:43:00.003+08:00

BOX is the love :D

Hmm , today no school ! So rot at home . And attemp to hack and train at DreamMS . Cos none i know de online . ): So very hard to train . How i know ! Dio ban . LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLS . Sian lor . ): Still waiting for SGPMs to be up . T T Cos miss seeing iLoveBox . >.< ( Purposely write cos i know he read my blog . =X ) LMAOS . * 傻笑 ♥

I'm bi-less . LOL (:

2008-08-14T14:42:00.003+08:00

BlogThings :D

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but for you, it's all about quality and not quantity.

You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off.

And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave.

When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable.

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices

It's nothing to do with the way you look...

He's just has really fallen for you

But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

Your Ex May Be Into You... Or Not...

He's sending you mixed messages, no doubt about it

Maybe you hurt your ex and he needs time

Or maybe he's just not sure that you're the one

Either way, it's time to give him space to figure it out

Just don't delete him from your speed dial... yet

You Are 8% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing.

You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.

You Are Fairly Abnormal in Love

When it comes to love, you definitely have your own take on things.

You love and hurt like everyone else, but your expectations and rules are different.

It may make it hard for you to feel understood. People don't really get where you're coming from.

Why You Are Normal in Love

You are normal because you think it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved.

You are normal because you rather die before your romantic partner.

Why You Aren't Normal in Love

You are abnormal because you have been in love with two people at the same time.

You are abnormal because you kiss on the first date.

You Are 79% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love.

But you're not really getting the deep love you seek.

Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.

Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

You are a Total Romantic

For you, love is like a fairy tale.

Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie.

Problem is, you sort of want all three.

You bring the spark in the relationship

In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning

Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate

You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys

You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities

Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

You are Ready to Date Again

If you're not out there already, you should be.

Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship.

Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage.

Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him.

Now, on to a better guy :-)

It's time for you to start dating!

Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites.

Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights.

Your Guy Could Bring You Home

When it comes to meeting the parents, you're cool and calm.

In fact, you're so self assured, you may forget to try to impress them.

Work that famous charm a little more, and your boyfriend's family will be loving you.

You Are a Friendly Ex

While the guys you've dated haven't been perfect, you've kept most as friends

In fact, one or two of your exes may be your best friends - after all, they know you best

And though your mature attitude is awesome, make sure nothing gets too weird

Or else you could lose these friendships, simply because your exes' new women think you're *too* friendly

You Were Pretty Average This Year

You Were 55% Naughty, 45% Nice

You tried to be a good girl this year...

But as you know, being good isn't that fun!

If you're extra sweet, you may have enough time to get on that nice list.

Just because i got so boring . Hees :D

2008-08-13T14:06:00.002+08:00

I love my bi :D

Feeeeeeeeeee ~ Now at school siol . Having adobe lessons . =O But i playing warcraft ! With dolphin . Lololololol . Kinda boring , so looking forward to go home to talk with bi ! :D Miss bi siol . =O Talk to him till last night sleep 2 hours only . xD But nevermind la . Talk to bi siol . Mai sleep also sua . :D Omg , i forgot to bring my library books go return . =O Today due date . But nevermind la . Dio fine also is weeboon dio ! Hees ! So bad . =X ♥

I love my bi bi bi bi bi ! :D

2008-08-12T13:38:00.002+08:00

Aww , it's a rainy day today

Well , nothing much had happened recently . But i tried a new private server with xiang zi yesterday . Naturally , that server cannot be compared with our SGPMs . :D But , that server got pet siol ! We created couple character . =O So cute neh ! xD Hees . (: But play awhile nia , then server down le . ): Stupid lo . But nevermind la , weekends then play again . :D Sighs , my hp bill bo pay . T.T Cannot sms and make outgoing calls . ): So anyone finding me , kindly call my hp . =O Cos i only can recieve incoming calls . ♥

Probably , i can find other interestings things that i'm unable to do so in the past . :D

2008-08-11T18:27:00.002+08:00

Wonderful picture says it all

Happy 20th Wedding Anniversary to my parents ! :D ♥

2008-08-10T16:44:00.002+08:00

It's time to start everything anew

I figured it out . Maybe i ought to get on with everything that i've missed and left out of my life . So , i'll forget him and get over every memories that we've shared ! :D Hees , so i'm gonna get on with my life happily ! ^^ ♥

Today's a happy day for me :D

2008-08-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

Sometimes , i feel stupid just thinking of you

Just finish viewing his friendster . He looks so fucking happy in his photos . And here i am , getting sad thinking of him . Maybe i ought to forget him and start everything anew . But god ! I'm unable to do it . Call me stupid , silly , whatever you liked to call me . I just can't help loving him . It's a misery having to struggle during my sleep at night thinking about him . I'll always end up having sleepless nights . Sighs . He'd totally forgotten about me . I'm just a total stranger to him now anyway . So what for harping on memories about him . Hais . idk what to say . ): ♥

Sometimes , i feel like crying just thinking about you . i♥u

2008-08-08T22:50:00.001+08:00

Being center of the attention lessen my pain

Probably , he's thinking of another girl right now . =O Maybe like i say , we're not fated to be . Guess he's happily living his live and i shall live my life to the fullest right from this moment . Tsktsk ): ♥

Feeuweet ! Today we had our National Day celebration at Macpherson ITE . :D We were kind of late when we reach there . xD A lotttttttttt people were gathering at the parade square . We listened to the don't know who crap about the National Day message . Then we then proceed to the field to watch a soccer match . It was so fucking boring duh ! Cannot tahan siol . Then went to slack at the canteen with eddie and his classmates . There was this very funny indian guy . Eddie was practically making fun of him throughout ! I find it very funny though . xD Laughing my head off was my remedy . Then we went to the hall to watch wushu performance . =O Then when it was ending , a teacher stand beside us and handed us a handful of balloons . xD Then when the performance ended , i went to the front to take another handful of balloons . =X 24 balloons siol ! I feel like i'm taking wedding photos . Lols . Cos today soooooo windy ~ Balloons keep on flying up ~ xD Aw , living in my on dream land . Lololololols . :D Then girlf today teach wo how to suck helium and we undergo a voice change process ! So funny bodoh ! Like alien talking siol ! xD I laughed like a mad woman . Lols ! I was practically laughing all my way . Then my other balloons flew away at the MRT platform . ): Wind too big le . :O Then we went to AMK's Sumo House to makan ! :D Then met jh . :O Walked around hub to find present for his lil cousin . But no bookshops . ): So we went back to Boonlay . On the way , girlf ask jh and me a very funny qsn . She asked if the world only left with the 2 of us , will we sacrifice ourselves to reproduce more babys to save the world ? OMFG . I cannot imagine doing sex with my good friend . It's so fucking akward ! So i avoided that qsn . Then we went to jp's popular ~ Bought some books , then went home le . :O So tired ): Just back from a heavy dinner . Aw ~ I'm getting sleepy ~ Hees . =X

A kinda long post . :D Tired after reading ? Off your comp and go to sleep ! :D Make love with your bed . xD TEEHEEHEEs ~

My heart left with you the moment you left me . Sighs , nothing could bring my smile back to me . I just want you to know , i still misses you so much after such a long time . Hais ♥

2008-08-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

We're just so not fated to be together

I guess , ever since he left me for 1year and 6months , i'm never the same anymore . I find it difficult to find a guy to commit to . Maybe i deserved it . I don't know how to cherish that perfect lil guy in front of me when i had the chance to . I can only say , i really misses him so much ): ♥

Today , met JIAHAO outside school . =O Cos i today no lessons . :D Wanted to find EVEREST teeshirt for tomorrow's National Day Celebrations . But unfortunately , OM don't wanna to lend me . ): So i've got no choice but to try to borrow one tomorrow morning . We talked awhile with ARMADEEP & ENQI then JIAHAO and me went to 907 to eat chicken rice . =O We then slacked awhile at his void deck until my sis came . Then went home with sis . Today's a boring day . ):

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么~让我诚实一点
诚实~难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机~让它休息一夜
难~想切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐～
我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也溶了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你~带一点恨
还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕画面重生
祝我生日~快乐

ilu CYC . ): My love for you will never ever fade . Come back to me , will you ? I really misses you . ):

2008-07-27T20:55:00.002+08:00

Everyone Seems Happy To Me

I'm talking to nuer at msn right now , girls talk . ( : It seems like everyone look happy except for the 2 of us . Are every guys the same ? I'm not being bias towards girls in my update today . I've gone through all these before and i understand it better than anyone . But , i really don't know what more i can say . I'm just so disappointed in everything , everyone . Every single one . Is this how human function to stay alive & kicking ? Rejecting people who loved them so much . They're happy seeing someone who love them so much suffering ? Is this how the world's gonna be ? Stabbing everyone in their heart , deep down . Maybe you people think that , i don't deserved to be loved . But what wrong have i done to deserve this ? If you think i'm wrong , don't even love me in the first place . What's the use of giving me hope and made me fall so deep from such a great height ? Maybe , i was blind to fall for you . I'm just so blinded from love , perhaps .

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

ps ; Happy Birthday To xVinVin TaiSunZi :D

2008-07-24T12:13:00.002+08:00

Joke Of The Day ; " I Love Vincent A.K.A xVinVin :D "

Days since i last updated ? I guess my brain's going to get rusty if i don't blog in perfect english . Ip was being banned from SGPMs yesterday cos of my sister's itchy hand . And today , no school . And yet i can't maple and had been rotting in front of my comp from 8am . Life's been getting more and more bitchy recently . -.- Had been bitchying around in school and msn for gossips . =X The latest and juciest gossips ! Hees .

I'm so god damn boring ! ) :

2008-07-16T11:54:00.001+08:00

Gossips :D

Snapshot of my Turquoise friend . Guess who ! :D

2008-07-16T08:56:00.001+08:00

NAOHIA EH !

CHAOJIBAI ! #^@!(*$&@*&%%

2008-07-15T13:23:00.001+08:00

It Always End Up This Way

It's just a mere few days gap between my last update and this . But so much difference and ups & down have occurred . I don't know how am i able to cope with this . Maybe i'll get used to it slowly . But i wonder how long i'll take . I really don't understand . Do i deserved to be treated like this ? You reflect on yourself too . Have i ever ill treated you or what ? Is this what i'm suppose to get back from you ? Even if you wanna disappear from my life , you could have make the effort to do so . But you didn't . I'm not worried about you . I'm worried about our relationship . You're still who i care about in my life . A lot of people does warn me about you in the past . But i chose to believe you . And this is how you used my trust to get my everything . I don't hate you now . I'm just so disappointed in you . & i despise you for everything you've done . Maybe whatever i said here will be nothing to you , i still hope you'll make an effort to read . Cos this update's mainly for you . And i know you really do know how i feel about you . And you should jolly well know , i'm serious about our relationship . And you chose to end it this way . I've got no choice but to obliged . Sighs . I've got nothing much more to say . I just hope that you'll completely FUCK OFF my life forever .

It take time to heal such a deep wound .

2008-07-09T19:51:00.001+08:00

My Heart's So Easily Influenced

Hees ! Today's been a very happy day for me . I don't know why ! Just very very very happy ! :D Photos photos ! People don't laugh your head off , especially NIN Girlfriend ! =X These are all the hair i've randomed . ><

Below are photos with my One Night Stand aka FongAkaWind ! I LOVE HIM !! :D

Our couple wear ~ :D

I love FongAkaWind a.k.a sKyHira a.k.a FEI like zomfgroflbbq ! :D

2008-07-07T23:00:00.007+08:00

iamauselessgirl

Sighs . Nothing much to say . So i shall post some photos .

Focus on my messenger only pl0x . :X

This is a dog i'm fucking angry at . xD Focus on my char too ><

Dio spam siol ! =X So sweet ~

Lone's my favourite zhurennnnnn ~

sKyHira = FongAkaWind . ._.

Rofls . We had one night stand @ fm . xD

I wanna die .

2008-06-30T11:04:00.003+08:00

I Guess , I'm Getting Tired

Hmm , recently had been very very very busy . Busy playing private server . :x Now server down that's why i got time to update . Rolfs . I'm lv 18x already ! 1x lv more to reborn . :x Aww , i'm gonna faint ~

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Click For Bigger Image Pl0x .

ps ; i miss you

2008-06-27T18:24:00.005+08:00

ZOMFGBBQROLF !~

Good news . xiaOskies's banned till 11 July . ._. I guess i also hand itchy la . Cos LaPiDasinz megaed _I_ behind his mega . Then GMAPaeeon banned him . Then my hand itchy lor . I went to mega . " _I_ U GMAs . BAN MY GLG . WU JI BAN ME LA ! " Then few secs later , i dio ban le lor . Lol .

I'll Miss My lXia0WuGuil Date The Most . ^ ^

ps ; i miss you ) :

2008-06-25T14:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , I Guess I Was Wrong To Be Borned At All

I've got nothing much to say . Cos i'm really feeling very awful this minute . I just wanna say . Date , ILU . Hen duo hen duo . Even You call me not to love you that much , i still can't control my feelings .

xiaOskies ❤ lXia0WuGuil

ps ; i miss you hugs

2008-06-24T10:47:00.005+08:00

I'm Really Feeling Very Sad ) :

I don't know why i'm feeling so sad . Just recieved a call from HIM and realise he's not the one tagging at my board . I don't know why . Am i sad cos he's not the one tagging ? Sighs , i guess so . Maybe i just hope that he'll really tag all those things to me . Hais , i guess , i'll emo the whole week ba .

You May Not Know , But I'm Beginning To ~~Like~~ Love You .

ps ; tell me you love me . ) :

2008-06-23T07:41:00.001+08:00

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

I guess , i'm rather moody these few days . And i can't find the reason why i lost sleep everynight . Although i had not been sleeping for about 48 hours ? I'm still very sober indeed . Throughout these few days of me not blogging , a lot of things sure changed . And i seriously don't think i'll be in the mood to blog for a very long time . I guess , i don't have anything much more to say .

I Love My lXia0WuGuil Date . ( :

ps : i miss my girlfriend loads .

2008-06-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

Pacing Around For A One Big Round , And I'm Back In The Same Old Place

Sighs , somethings are cannot be forced . What's gone is gone . No point looking back when there's no going on in the past . And no matter what you gonna do or say , nothing's gonna bring me back to your side . It's useless already . Give up ba . Sighs .

Well , these few days . I had been mapling & mapling . My xiaOskies's finally Lv50 . And during those boring nights , Boon pei me talked on phone . ._. That's the first time i'm talking on phone with him siol . Our conversations was damn funny . And last night , his classmate joined in . xD I've never ever felt so happy for a very long time already . So well , i guess . My life's getting better . ( :

I Don't Love You . I Need You .

2008-06-04T19:22:00.000+08:00

People Love Me That They Spam-ed Me ( :

Hmm , this post's for the person who tagged as _|_ . I'm lazy and find it meaningless to check the IP address . So if you wanna tag and comment about me , put your name there . Unless you're not very proud of the name your parents or whoever gave you ? Then , i pity you . Learn to love your name . It reflects what kind of person you are , and your purpose of living in this world . If you are still unwilling to put your name , i've got no choice but to think that you're very pathetic . And like i say , if you think i'm a sore to your eyes , you're welcome to leave . What for wasting your time tagging at my board ? Everyone jolly well know that i don't entertain these kind of people .

2008-06-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

Maybe , We're Probably Not Meant To Be At All

I guess , it's was a mistake right from the start i started playing maple . Everything's not going the way i wanted ever since . And now , i've started to hate myself for that . And to say the truth , i don't know why . And , my heart truely really hurts . It really hurts me to see you treating her so good . How i wish i was her . But , reality is fact . I can't change anything now . What i can only do is , wait . Patiently waiting , waiting for you to turn back to me . Sighs ~

I can only say , my love for you is definitely not lesser than HER . Hais . Can you notice that i exist in your world ?

ps : I need you for everything .

2008-05-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

Everything's Not Going The Way I Predicted Them To Be

Okays , today's update will not be a very happy one too . I guess my blog's gonna tear and flood if i go on like this . And as for today's update , i don't know how to start and what to update . I've been thinking about it for a very long time . People may say , it's perfectly fine to pursue my dreams & desires . But , it's also wrong in a sense . But , i really find it very hard to keep my feelings anymore . Sighs , i don't know what to say anymore .

I just wanna you to love me like you love her . Can i have you as my valentine FOREVER ?

2008-05-27T11:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , Miracles do happens .

Sometimes , it's amazing as to how people feels about different kind of person . People do have a mind of their own and people couldn't control how they wanna feel about someone . Here i was , sitting on my school's arm chair , looking at my school's slow comp and i was think about what i've read in Royce's blog . And i can't believed it , i actually teared for something that's none of my business . But to say the truth , whatever he's wrote really touched me . And how wonderful is that ? To propose your love to someone you truely love . But what about me ? I'm still wandering in the lost woods , thinking of how am i suppose to let that guy really know how i feels ? Sometimes , i really feel that i'm truely feeling very helpless . I don't really know how to open my damn mouth and just say the simple & meaningfull 3 words . I Love You ~ Maybe it's that i'm only 17 and my thinking's kinda childish . And probably i'm still playing & fooling around with relationships . And probably from my past experience , i've learnt not to fall into relationships so deep & easily . And probably that's why i'm not taking everything seriously . Sighs .

I fugging hate myself for being like this . _|_

How i wish , i could have plucked out that kind of courage and look in your mesmerizing eyes and say ; I Love You .

2008-05-26T20:52:00.003+08:00

你离开我的第 465 天 , 我依然觉得你是我的唯一

你的脸 , 对我来说已经非常模糊了 . 几乎都要忘记你的可爱的笑容 . 但是 , 你的温柔会是永远地留在我心里的 . 当我第一次看到你 , 我已深深地爱上你 . 好几回 , 在梦里也会笑 . 多么希望 , 你永远只属于我一个 . 也许我只能在梦里看到你 , 我也很开兴 . 只希望 , 没有我的日子 , 你也会开兴 , 也会幸福 . 我爱你爱得好累了 , 非常累了 . 但是 , 我又不能让自己不爱你 . 也许 , 有一天你会回到我身边 . 但是 , 我也许已经离你而去了 . 请你不要想我 , 不要挂念我 . 只要偶尔记得有我这个人 , 我就满足了 . 或许我以前好傻 , 爱你爱得那么深 . 但是 , 我知道 . 全世界只有你最值得得到我的爱 . 也许我以后会爱上别人 , 你将会是我最爱的人 . 是我曾经那么爱过的男人 . 我是想说 , 我真得非常非常想你 , 非常非常爱你 .

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Guys , let me introduce you to my Dearest & Chioest Boss . ( :

He ain't big , he's my BOSS . ( :

你就是我的爱 ; 我的永远 ; 我的未来 ; 爱你是我的决定

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-05-25T17:30:00.000+08:00

你离开我的第 464 天 ; 我依然还是那么的想着你

今天 , 我还是那么的想你 . 我们曾经拥有过的一切 , 现在也只是在你和我的心里的一段回忆 . 一段我永远也放不下的回忆 . 也许有一天 , 你会随着年龄在我的脑海里消失 . 但我也很倾心你曾经那么爱我 , 那么关心我 , 那么疼我 . 只要我们拥有过那一段美好的回忆 , 不管将来你爱的是别人 , 我也会发自内心祝福你们 . 虽然我爱你爱得好辛苦 , 但是在爱着你的每一份每一秒 , 我都觉得好开兴好开兴 . 也许是我傻 , 是我笨 . 但爱你并不傻 , 并不笨 . 或许我们是两个不同世界的人 , 但是我的爱能够穿越时间 . 可能有一天 , 我觉得累了 . 我也许会放弃你 , 永远离你而去 . 但是 , 我好想说 , " 我爱你 , 非常非常的爱你 . "

我还是依然深深地爱着你 ♥

我真的好累了 ; 非常非常的累 ; 借我你的肩膀好吗 ?

晶晶 ♥ 聪聪

2008-05-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

你离开我的第 463 天 ; 我依然还是那么爱你

过了那么久 , 我还是那么的想念你 . 而且 , 每天的想念 . 是越来越深 , 令我无法自拔 . 有时 , 我告诉自己 , 醒醒吧 . 你是不会再回到我身边的 . 但是只要一想到我们曾经拥有过的一切 , 我就觉得其实爱上你不是一个错 . 而是我的使命 . 也许我们再也不能够像以前那么相爱 , 只要我们曾经有过那一段我就已经足够了 . 也许你会觉得我对你的爱会淡淡的不见 , 但是只要有我在的一天 , 你就会永远的被我爱着 . 也许会有那么一天 , 我永远的离开你 , 我也要你记得 . 曾经有一个女孩那么爱你 . 可能有一天 , 我会不再爱你了 . 那天就是海苦干了 , 天被云淹没了 . 别人可能觉得我好笨 , 觉得我好傻 . 但是 , 永远爱着你是我愿意做的事 . 没有了你 , 就好像失去一样非常重要的东西 . 我只希望有一天 , 你会回过头对我说一声 " 我想你 " . 也许有一天 , 我会永远离你而去 .

我还是依然深深地爱着你 ♥

To Girlfriend : Thanks for everything you've done . I'm really happy that I've met you . & I'm really very happy to have you as my best Girlfriend . I just wanna say , " Girlfriend , I can never ask anything more than you . You'll be my one and only Girlfriend I wanna have in my life . You'll never ever be replaced by any Tom , Dick & Harry . I love you . "

To Cher Lovelove : Love , thanks for being there for me whenever I need someone to talk to . And I really love the way you encourage me . It makes me wanting to live my life to the fullest for everyone I love & everyone who love me . And thanks for being with me at my most saddest period of my life . I'll never ever let you go .

To Poyo Lovelove : Love , although we're not very close , I still love you lots . You cared so much about me & I'm really very happy that you cared . & we sure have so many happy moments together . And love , I wanna say , " Thanks for all the encouragement you've given to me . I appreciate it a lot . & trust me , we'll be LOVEs for life . ( : "

To Brandon : Brand , thanks for everything you've done over that matter . I could never know how can i repay you . You're so good to me , and I'm really grateful for that . I can only say , " I'm really very happy having you as my friend . ( : "

这是爱 , 永远的爱 . 好像开口让你知道 ; 我又多爱你 . ) :

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-05-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

你离开我的第 462 天 ; 我依然觉得非常空

I think , i feel like blogging in chinese . ._.

也许, 失去了才会懂得珍惜 . 今天是颜聪离开我的第 462 天 . 也许 , 他心里已经没有了我 . 也许 , 他早已忘了我 . 但是, 我们在一起的 67 天 , 是我这一生最快乐的一段日子 . 他总是有能力逗我笑 , 令我觉得好幸福好幸福 . 只要看到他的笑 , 什么烦恼都没有了 . 虽然现在 , 他心里想着的是另一个女孩 , 我也一样开兴 . 毕竟，不在乎天长地久 , 只在乎曾经拥有 . 只要我知道 , 他曾经那么的爱过我 , 那么的关心我 , 那么的疼我 , 我就开兴了 . 只要有这一切 , 就已经足够了 . 现在 , 我依然活在自己的梦里 , 梦里还是有你 . 只要你开兴 , 我什么都愿意 .

我还是依然深深地爱着你 ♥

我想念你的吻 ; 我想念你的笑 ; 我想念你的爱

2008-05-22T17:45:00.001+08:00

就是开不了口让他知道

Okays , today shall be marked as True-Colours Day . Because i finally saw the true colours of some people . And to say the truth , i don't really know what they're thinking of . But , it's not that important anymore . It doesn't concern me anymore . Cos from today & this moment onwards , they've got nothing to do with me anymore . If it means that if we're befriending this girl , we'll invite a lot of trouble for ourselves , i rather that we'll stay as the closest stragers . & it'll be okay to say hi to each another occationally . but , we'll never be as close as ever anymore . And today's incident , i would rather not talk about it anymore . What you people wanna do and who you wanna be with , it'll have no business with me anymore . I'm just so tired , i'm really tired le . Why can't you people put yourself in my shoes and think how would i feel ? It's like , i'm dealing with stress which a normal 30 year old adults will be dealing . You think i can handle all those stress ? I tell you , i can't . I really can't & i'm really very tired already . But what for i continue living ? It's for the sake of my parents & those who loves me . I don't wanna them to lose hope in me . Sighs . Then if one day , i really can't handle everything anymore . I guess , that'll be the last time you'll be seeing me . I guess so .

Fong's loved like zomfgbbqrolf . ( :

LaPi says he wanna be famous in my blog . ._. Stupid siol ~

Maybe , it was a mistake right from the start . Right from the moment i knew you . Right from the moment i hug you . Right from the moment i kiss you .

& right from the moment i love you .

2008-05-18T08:58:00.001+08:00

Goodbye -

I've thought for it for a v long time . I think it's time to end everything . Baby , thanks for everything you've done for me . I really appreciate it . But , i think , we better end it sooner to not make each another more tong ku . I don't wanna to decieve myself anymore , that i really don't love you like the way you love me . I can't . I'm sorry that i really have to leave you . But i just wanna let you know . The one month plus i'm with you , thanks for everything you've done for me . & once you've read this post , i know that you'll try to call me . But , please . If you really love me from your bottom of your heart , please leave me alone . & forget me . I'm no worth every piece of your love . So , don't bother to contact me if you really love me .

2008-05-18T01:47:00.001+08:00

It's always better to stay in dreams rather then reality .

FUYOH . I promise to have a very long post today . :X I've got 2 days of fruitful events to update . xD Conclusion : I'm very fucking happy . ^ ^

16th May 2008 .
Today , for your information , i went to school in a very happy mood . :X Cos it's my birthday tomorrow ! ^ ^ Then we're having steamboat in school today . :X We're probably the first group of people who does that . ._. It's so happening and fun . Well , we had a lot of food siol . :X And MINI joined in . SITHI joined in to play also . :X ADELINE's damn high . xD And a lot of people are staring at us siol . :X But , attracting attention's fun . :X It's my speciality too . xD Well , feast your eyes on all th photos .

Overall for 16th May , Adeline looks really very very happy . :X

17th May 2008 .
Firstly , Happy Birthday to me ! :X Hees . ^ ^ I really love this day . ._. Cos i'm so fucking loved by everyone . Except AHGR . I told him to give me a birthday hug & kiss . :X And he ran away siol . T T Sad la . This dog . :X I really love the present POYO LOVE & CHER LOVE buy de present . ._. Nice nice . <3 LOVES FOREVER . Then met BABY . Then we went to have our lunch at Long John . ._. I wanna keep this update short . Cos i'm really too tired to type le . =='' Photos now . :X

LOVELOVES are LOVED .

ps : cher love & me saw our most hated guy today . ._.

爱 is always making my Cry .

2008-05-09T11:43:00.002+08:00

Without Love , I Guess I'll Still Be Wondering In The Lost Woods .

Baby , Happy First Month Anniversary . <3 I Love You .

Baby , I Love You . & I'll Never Let You Go .

2008-05-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

Absence makes the HEART fonder .

Well , i know i blog irregularly . ._. Promise , i'll make an effort to blog everyday if i can . Today , was overall a bad day . I was basically fed-up about something , which me myself don't even know what it is . And i found out , living life the happy way could be so difficult . Sighs , this update could be an EMO one . But i guess , it'll be a short one . But if i gets out of hand and types too much , bear with me . ( : Whatmore i'm feeling so depressed today . ^ ^ Last few days , i had been reading my Old Blog's Archive . I then realise , what big changes i've made . And i can't help thinking about the past . & i fucking realises , i've made so much mistakes in the past that i've live to regret it . If i was given a second chance , probably i won't meet my BABY . So , it was a blessing in disguise ba ? But i just can't help regretting for what i've done in the past . If time were to turn back , probably it won't be the same anymore . As i'm blogging this post , i'm actually tearing and i don't know why . I just can't seem why i have to make those stupid mistakes . And probably , i'm changing back to who i used to be . Sighs .

Baby , just a simple sentence . I just wanna say , I Love You .

Sighs .

2008-05-05T21:56:00.009+08:00

Probably , I'm not Perfect as I seems to be . Evtually , no one's perfect .

Today uh ! Very very very HIGH ! xD Maybe cos of my new haircut ! HAHAHA . A lot of people say that i look like JAPANESE ~ Hees . :X Today GIRLFRIEND says that i'm very KAWAII . >< Well ~ Today I arrived early at the interchange . :X Cos i'm so excited about my new hair ! xD Then while on the MRT , Girlfriend kept on saying that i look so cute with my NERDY specs & new HAIRSTYLE . Anyway , i'm feeling so HIGH today . Hees . :X Then during lessons , a group of us were playing with my specs . & Ade was damn funny . She made stupid pose while wearing the specs . Then Ade & Sherman was dancing together . SO SO SO FUNNY LUR ! & i took a lot of idiotic photos of myself today . :X Later shall upload the pics & videos . :X Then today after school , went to Bugis with GIRLFRIEND , JANICIA & YINGYING . Went to Alice 88Th to pei GIRLFRIEND buy the bunny bag . While on the way , YINGYING treat us to ice cream . :X Then we ate it while walking to AUNTIE ALICE 's shop . :X Then she was waiting for us the shop siol . Like expecting us to be there . xD She say she damn BORING siol . Then we faster finish our ice cream and went inside the shop to pei her . xD Then she told me , got Japanese SchoolGirl de uniform of my size . :X So , i dared myself & i tried on the dress . So damn weird siol ! AUNTIE ALICE added cats' ears & a checkers' bag . And she let GIRLFRIEND & JANICIA to take my photo . ._. They say i look cute . =='' But i look so damn fat lur . xD Then we had a lot of fun in her shop . :X And i'm getting that uniform for my birthday . :X Kinda excited . Then GIRLFRIEND , SOLOMON & me going for road fest on 25th May . >< EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED ! HEHEHE ! Well , headed home and i now , sitting on my dearest chair blogging . :X Overall , today's the most memorable day !

LOVELOVES ARE LOVED !

Craving for the video ? :X HERE IT IS !

Baby . No matter what happens in the future , I'll promise you that our future will be full of each another in our hearts . Whatever matters to me , is you . And promise me baby , don't ever ever leave me alone in this freaking world . And i'll promise not to leave you too . I love you Baby .

2008-05-04T21:59:00.001+08:00

Perhaps , FairyTales do come true in Real Life . ( :

Hmm , haven't update for 2 days le . I'll try to keep my post SHORT & SWEET ! But , bear with me if my post appears LONG ~

03 May 2008 .

Today , i decided to go for a haircut . Cos , Singapore is getting freaking HOTTER . It's like , I only left the fan for 1 minute , and i'm sweating already . ._. So i decided to cut my hair shortter . cos i rebonded my fringe , i was so FREAKING STUNNED ! My hair looks so fugging nice ! I love my new hairstyle so much . LOVELOVELOVE ! xD Well , after my haircut , went home cos BABY was waiting for me at my void deck . Then we went to have lunch at 日本村 with my mum , sis & bro . My sis was a bit retard yesterday . I don't know why . ._. Maybe BABY made her crazy with his laughter . Lol . Then after eating , BABY and me brought my bro to his tuition center . While on the way , the 2 guys machiam like ArkKaLiao . ._. Both 有说有笑 siol . =='' Then i a bit buay tahan them . Lol . Then i wanted to go SWIMMING so i called BABY to go home early . :X Swimming was fun . ( : Then i went to my ahma house to have dinner . Then i went home & sleep . ._. So tired . :X

04 May 2008 .

Well , today was a big day for my BABY . He was finally gonna meet my family officially . So , i decided to prepare the dinner myself . :X Tonight's dish was PASTA . :X So , i waited till afternoon when my ahyi arrived . Cos she prepared all the seafood and all lur . ._. Then so Busy Busy Busy , like bees . xD But BABY keep on following me . ._. SUPERGLUE siol ~ xD Then BABY said that my cooking's nice . :X Hees . BABY went home le . My uncle drive him home . ) :

Idiotic Pictures Of the day . ._.

My sister was actually tying to take part in advertising Sushis . ._.

She looked like she took this photo herself . But actually , she's holding on to my hand while i took it .

She won the " Most Retard Of The Day " Prize . Grats . ._.

She rocks lur . xD

See ? I told you I love my new hair that i'm acting a bit retard . ._.

Open wide wide .. And .. MOSQUITOE FLY IN ! xD

Baby , you made feel as if i lived in FairyTales . ( : You made me believe in putting all my heart into you . I really do hope that our FairyTale will never ever end . ^^ You'll always be my silly lil` baby pig . ( :

2008-05-02T19:24:00.002+08:00

2008-05-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if the world is Cadbury ?

Well , today woke up late . ._. Cos i thought the lesson starts at 10am . =='' Then neverminds lo . I went to school alone . Then at the MRT , got this weird guy . Although he look like he's reading a book , he keeps on bio me siol . Then when i caught him bio me , he smiled at me with a very eerie smile . ._. Damn fuck siol . Then i mai care him lo . Then met TINA at Bedok Busstop . =='' Then today , no APRIL's class . Cos she sick , then AMOS take over . So , when i reached class , class ended le . ._. Was so fed up . =='' Then after school , was waiting for 222 with a bunch of lovely peeks . And woohoo ! DOUBLE-DECKER ! I simply love DOUBLEDECKS . :X Then i went to the upper deck to find MINI . Then one the tv , there was this Cadbury Chocolate advertisment . Mini was damn funny ! She sang , " Wouldn't it be nice if I was Cadbury ? Wouldn't it be nice if my BF lick me ? " . I was laughing my head off bodoh . Then she grabbed my ASS when i wanted to get off to the lower deck . ._. So tiko . xD Then when reached Bedok Inter , we were still thinking where to get our breakfast . So , we decided to have MOS BURGER for breakfast . So , we went to DHOBYGHAUT . Then after our lunch , we went to VIVO . :X We saw the Black Black guy who used to work at Bugis Street de ZINC . >< Then , Ying & Girlfriend & Me bought the same Hp accessories . So nice siol . :X Then , we went to DAISO . Girlfriend's mad over DAISO . Cos they play JAPANESE songs there . & we found many interested things there . Shall show all of you later . :X Then , we went to the WATER PARK and took a lot of stupid photos there . ._. We sure had great fun today . ^ ^ And , headed back home . So tiring ~

Time will prove how much i love you , Baby . Aishiteru .

2008-04-30T22:22:00.003+08:00

Don't judge me for who I am . You FUCKERS are not fit to .

Okay , i'm here to crap like FUCK again . Well , like i always say . Fuck off if you think i'm ridiculous . I don't FUCKING care what you say about me . Okay , enough of all these CRAPS . Well , today , no school siol . Cos YARKARCHUAN go reservist . ._. So we are free for one day ! & tomorrow's public holiday . :X Well , yesterday recieved kind of BAD & GOOD news uh . BABY got a job le . Okay , it means more income & lesser time together . I'm half HAPPY , half SAD . But what to do ? Future uh . ._. Okays . And today the whole day , was overall , S-I-A-N . ._. Woke up at 8 plus . Then slacked at home for awhile , went out with my mama & sister . My sis had appointment with KKH at 12 . We had our breakfast at boonlay then had pepperlunch for lunch . ._. Went to mini toons to buy loads of CRAPS . ._. Spent over $90 . Ex siol . Then went home . Maple & maple & maple . I'm so DULAN with my Guild . All DAOERS except for some beloved ones . Now i'm getting angrier and ANGRIER . * Relax Relax .

别人讲什么我都不在乎 , 只在乎你到底爱不爱我 .

2008-04-29T00:12:00.001+08:00

One night beautiful sleep & i'm back to my old self again .

hees . :X i'm here to upload the ss of our mega war last night . :X keep on laughing while editing the ss . yesterday was really great fun ! ^ ^

ps : baby , i'm so sorry about yesterday . i love you .

He promised me that he will love me FOREVER & he proved it .

2008-04-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

And this world doesn't seem so lovely as it seems to be .

Well ! Today was so damn funny . :X I finally know the meaning of PRUNPANG ! Sherman told me le . So weird de meaning . :X Anyway , had a great time in school . ( : And after school , we went to bugis . ._. Girlfriend wanna go buy gothic & shun bian go meet BABY . We stayed till about 7 plus . ._. And i rushed home after that . Cos , POYO & CHER waiting for me to start the mega war . :X The mega war was damn fun . The 3 of us was having conference with YANXIANG . He so funny lur . Say the conference only he one guy , so sian . ._. Then when we started the megas , at first , very less people pm wo . Then starting to have alot . ._. Abit irritating . ._. But funny . :D I shall update the megas . ( :

You told me you would bring me to watch the SKIES .

2008-04-27T18:11:00.004+08:00

Reality is tiring me out . Wake me up , won't you ?

FUYOH . Just back from EAST COAST PARK . So damn tiring . But decided to update my blog first in case i forgot what to update . Woke up at 8.40AM this morning . Had a fast shower and we set off . At first , went to my dad's workplace to settle somethings with his customer . Then we went to SERANGOON to fetch my gan jie & gan niece . Then we went to ECP . Then we had MACDONALD for breakfast . Then suddenly , it RAINED ! So we waited for awhile , then the rain stopped . Then my dad went to bought sand-play toys for my god niece . I fucking misses my CHILDHOOD . & time really flies , i'm 17 . .__. Well , we had a great time at the beach while playing with sand & water . Then my sis and me went to have a bath . Then we headed off to rent bicycles and CYCLE off ~ Went around ECP quite a number of times & i was tired out . But while my sister is on her way back to us , guess who she saw . She saw KANGJIAXI . Oh my . To say the truth , i really prefer KANGCHENGXI more . :X KANGJIAXI really should trim his hair shorter . Then he'll be more CHARMING . Well , after that , we went to return the bikes and went to MACDONALD to wait for my dad to fetch us back . Fall aslept in his car . :X Was really very very tired . Meanwhile , i realise . I've dio SUNBURNT and now , i look like a very big piece of CHAR SIEW . .__. ROLF :X

现实往往都比梦来得更残忍 .

2008-04-26T20:34:00.003+08:00

Before i forgot , i remembered i wanna blog something about aHgR . A picture speaks a thousand words . Look .

I wanna vomit .

2008-04-26T19:38:00.004+08:00

Reality Is Too Cruel For Me To Be In .

hmms . as usual , CHER is pressing me to update . .__. okays . then an update it shall be . lol . but recently had so many things happening . i think i'm going crazy soon . .__.

25th April .
Well , had April's lesson early in the morning . & for a very long time , we were only late for 30 mins . .__. April Nonsense . :X April was good that day . She let us in despite i was wearing slippers . x_X Cos she know i hurt my toes . And as usual , we copied tons of notes . That day's lesson was about Table Manners and all sort of Nonsense . But it was damn funny . Me and girlfriend are talking about the term Chai Chai Pom & all sorts . We've invented Pom Chai Chai , Chai Pom Chai , Pom Chai Pom , Chai Pom Pom , Pom Pom Chai , Pom Pom Pom , Chai Chai Chai . Then we were laughing so crazily till Girlfriend had an idea . She called YINGYING to recite what we've written . For Godness sake , it was damn funny. We were laughing till our stomach seriously hurts . .__. :X Then after April's lessons , Amos's lessons was short . Half an hour and we're release . Then after we've released , we were thinking of where to go . I suddenly say i feel like going Hougang . Then Jan was very very happy . Cos he having bball training at Hougang area . Cos wendy lived there . Then we set off to Hougang . But before that , we went to Kovan to have our lunch . After having lunch , we took MRT to SengKang . Cos girlfriend say she want take LRT . Then we go lo . Then we past BABY's house . :X Then after the short LRT ride , we went back to take MRT to hougang . leaving Jan in SengKang cos she say got bus to his meeting area . Then when we're in the MRT , there's this group of St Joseph's Convert students , a bunch of childish girls . They were running from the end to the start . And they nearly knocked into me . So i blurted out " JIBAI " . So after awhile , they walked back . And sort of confronted me . I shall not say about what we've talked about . But i was storming out of the MRT and shouting at the same time . Then one of their seniors also alighted at Hougang . And she told us that they're Sec2 . Oh My , My Fugging Godness . 14 years old kids trying to talk to us till so lan lan . I was so FUCKING pissed . But neverminds , they childish and don't know how to think . Well , we alighted at Hougang as planned . On the way to Hougang mall , guess who i saw . xTo0t . .__. So damn heng that he didn't saw me . Lol . Okays , then we continue walking to the mall . Then girlfriend call me to message KiaoGu ask him want come bo . Sadly , he say he wanna to play maple . .__. While when we're on the MRT & mall , we were yan jiu - ing PrunPang that term . Which Sherman always uses in class . And Girlfriend and me manage to successfully pronounce that word . It was addictive . We were at it throughout . .__. Okays , then we slack at the Mall for awhile and went to the interchange to take 161 to Woodlands & take the MRT home . Was tired from all the anger and LAUGHING that day .

26th April
Today was NONSENSE . Shall not update about what happen today . I'm kinda pissed off . * Sadded .

& Fairytales don't come true in Reality .

To the bunch of St Joseph's Convert girls . If you happen to read this , i wanna to let you know . I won't let all of you off so easily . If you wanna to act faster then me , then let me tell you . I'm studying at Bedok ITE . Come find trouble all you want . See what i'll do to all of you . & the next time , please think before what you wanna say & do beforehand . Don't shame yourself & your school .

2008-04-24T02:43:00.000+08:00

i'm actually thinking of what to update while i'm updating . had not been blogging a decent post for a very very very very very very very very very very very very very very long time . recently had been ps-ing girlfriend lur . so SORRY lur . but what had happened recently had been driving me nuts . although i know . my dad cares . and to say the truth , i don't blame him at all . all i can blame is myself . i should have told him earlier about BABY & me . now that everything had been like this , all i can do is try to make my dad see the good side of BABY . it's the least i could do . BABY also said it himself . he had lost the love from his dad . he don't want my dad to ~~HATE~~ him too . i had been thinking about it for a very long time . i spent one whole night thinking . all these could be avoided de . it's all becos of my stupid-ness . i spoilt everything . BABY said it's his fault , he's actually trying to AN WEI me . i know it's all my fault . i knew it . i cannot help holding back my tears anymore . and for the second time , i cried in front of BABY . no matter how strong i may look on the outside , i still can't take it anymore . holding back my tears seems so difficult for me already . we shared many beautiful memories together . i really don't want everything to end so quickly .

So , please god . Grant us more time together . ) :

2008-04-21T08:29:00.001+08:00

CAM-WHORE is FUN !

2008-04-21T05:18:00.000+08:00

had been called by CHER to update my blog . ._. but seriously , i don't really know what can i blog about . school life had been boring as usual . met GIRLFRIEND & JANICIA everyday to take the " SQUEEZY-AS-USUAL " MRT to school . and during the 1 hour mrt ride , we were fucking bored to hell . so , we discovered a new recreation activity ! ^ ^ SNAP-SHOTS ! WAHAHAHAHA . :X it's so god-damn fun ! it bonds our relationship though . :X although i'm kinda lazy , i'll still upload the pictures we took in the MRT . :X but , in the next post it shall be . ^ ^

2008-04-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

feee - uuuuu - weeeeeeeeeeet ~ so long didn't update le . :X don't really know what to update . school had just started . it's been great ! (: can see GIRLFRIEND everyday lur ! these few days , keep on seeing BABY . gonna rely on him lur ! cannot do without seeing him for a day . :X and GIRLFRIEND these days , keep on saying about KIAOGU . :X can see that she still misses him so much . hope they can patch uh . then i'll be very very happy for her . (:

& CHEER UP JANICIA ! (:

2008-04-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

Aiyoh ! Just viewed friendster de bullentin board . then saw one , posted by wilson . then very curious uh . open and see . GOD DAMN IT . i gotta post it cos i don't want HongYi Baby to meet up with any accident . (:

If you opened it, you have to
do it.
or
ur loved 1 will be in an accident.

Love Survey:
You must answer
every question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a
relationship?
- Yeap . (: 090408 x3

[02] Have you ever been
given a rose..
- Sadly , Nope .

[03] What is your
all-time favorite romance movie?
- Sky Of Love ~ :D

[04 ] There's no number 4 question..
- Dumb-ass .

[05] Do you believe that everyone has
a soul mate ?
- Of course ! It's just a matter of time . (: But , i've met mine ^ ^

[06] What's your current problem?
- Hmm . How to last long in my current r/s . ==''

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Sure did .

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
- It's hard to maintain .

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
- Er , nope ?

[10] The person your with right now, do you want to spend your life with?
- Of course ! I LOVE YOU BABY ~

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
- 1 son's enough . :X

[12] What is/are & your favorite colors?
- Red & white .

[13] Who are your celebrity crush?
- Nah , celebrity Love are stupid .

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once??
- Don't know ?

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
- Of course not !

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
- Pri 2 . :X

[17] What song do u want to be played at your wedding?
- Would you be there & Nothing's gonna change my Love for you .

[18 ] Do you like anyone?
- My One and only HongYi baby . x3

2008-04-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

WHEEEEEE - UUUUUU - WHEEEEEET ~ I'm really so damn happy uh ! :D I really happy till i don't know what am i gonna blog about . xD I can only say ..

Baby made my day yesterdae ! (: ♥ 090408 ~

2008-04-09T01:40:00.000+08:00

i guess , it's time i really update my blog . 4 days didn't update . you guys miss me ?! :X well , let's start with saturday , 5th april .

5th April .
Went to bunk with DEAR & GIRLFRIEND & CAOMEI . misses the 3 of them so much . anyway , we headed for bunk after meeting at boonlay control station . saw ROXANNE & LITING . they were giving out flyers for Singtel . their tee are really very cute , and i mean it . well , back to bunk . after reaching bunk , was so stunned . soooooooo many bunkers around . and , i found the old batch of bunkers ! :X we're totally so happy together . there's XIIA0LEEN , DIMPLEBOII , CUTEGALZ0 , G0D0FSPEAR , PWINCEBIBI , AHGR , YAWENXD , B3RRYCM , XIA0LYNN , O0BAOBEIIS0O , and a lot more . i'm sooooo happy to see all of them again . (: well , GIRLFRIEND , XIA0LYNN and me bought the same tee from IP . :X we agreed to wear it to bunk the coming saturday . looking forward to it ! (: and we slacked until 9pm and headed home .

6th April .
Today , woke up at 11am . :X then ate my breakfast and set off to aljunied to sao mu . first , went to my grandma's . i really misses her so much . it's been 5 years since she past away . then after that , went to choachukang . heng , no traffic jam like last week . it was a breeze entering . :D and expected , headed home .

7th April .
woke up by Chris Baby de morning call . cos i meeting him at lakeside at 9am . finally . can meet Chris Baby le . :X i reached first . then he came . and i shall not say what we've done uh . x_X but , i'm so glad that i saw Chris Baby yesterday .

& Chris Baby , i miss your hug so much .

2008-04-05T13:38:00.000+08:00

took these survey from FRIENDSTER . was posted by JANICIA . it looks kinda INTERESTING , cos it have 100 questions . :X

ARE YOU:
1. Perfect: Of course not .
2. Tall: Quite tall for a girl . :X
3. In your pajamas: Yeah .
4. Left handed: Nope .

LAST
1. Friend you saw: Sexaye .
2. Talked to on the phone: My mum .
3. Person to text you: Chris Baby
4. Was today better than yesterday: 100% not .

FAVORITE:
1. Number: 23 .
2. Color: Blue . Cos it represent the SKIES . :X
3. Food: I wanna eat YOU . xD
4. Place: Chris Baby's heart . :X

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
- Woke up & think of Chris Baby . :X

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
- Sure does .

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
- The Waterhorse . :X

Q: Where is the last place you went?
- My Grandma house .

Q. Do you smile a lot?
- YES ! CRAZY SMILES ~

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
- If Singapore have more stars at night .

Q: Are you a friendly person?
- Sure ! (:

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
- Slept in hospital . T T

Q: Why did you sleep there?
- I accomponied my dad to bring my sis to hospital .

Q: When was the last time you cried?
- Not long ago , last night . ):

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
- Chris Baby filled my mind .

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad ten being great?
- 8 !

Q: What do you hear right now?
- Heavenly Days . :X

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
- YEAH ! MY PIMPLE ! ):

Q: What's your favorite month?
- May . :X

1. Are you missing someone right now?
- Chris Baby . <3

8. Are you tired?
- Yeah . ==''

001. Real name? KaiJing .
002 Birthday? 051791 .
003. Eye color? Black .
004. Zodiac sign? Taurus .
005. Male or female? Female .
006. Single? Nope . :X
007. Crushing? In a crush with Chris Baby . ^ ^
009. Smart? People say i am , but i'm not .
010. Hair color? Brown .
011. Long or short? What long ? :X
013. Sweats or Jeans? Sweats .
014. Phone or Camera? Phone ! I can't live without it . (:
015. Health freak? So fat , health freak ? People laugh their head off .
021. Righty or lefty ? Righty .

FIRSTS:
024. First best friend? Girlfriend . (: We're still best of friends now . ^ ^
025. First award? Got 2nd in academic in Pri 2 .
026. First enemy? No one ~ :D
027. First pet? Forgot .
028. First vacation? Trip to malaysia . :X

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating? Nope .
050. Drinking? Nope .
052. I'm about to? Play audi with Caomei . :X
053. Listening to? Heavenly Days ~
054. Plans for today? SLEEPPPPPPP ~ zZz ~
055. Waiting for? Chris Baby . :X

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE
GENDER:
068. Lips or eyes? Lips . :X
070. Shorter or taller? Taller .
072. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic .
074. Sensitive or loud? Loud .
075. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship .

HAVE YOU EVER:
079. Drank bubbles? Huh ? I don't know .
080. Lost glasses/contacts? Nope .
081. Ran away from home? Yeah . ==''
084. Broken someone's heart? Don't know .
085. Been arrested? Yeah . ==''

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Do you like someone? Chris Baby !
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Chris Baby made my day . <3
100. Post as (100 truths).....

2008-04-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

people may think that i'm SILLY . falling for a guy whom i've just know for 1 DAY . but hey , it's the FEELINGS that counts . & i knew it . CHRIS's the one i've always been looking for , for the past 17 YEARS of my life . & BABY , i wanna this relationship to be the LAST one for the both of us . i really don't wanna TYPE anymore . no point TYPING if i'm the ONLY ONE reading all these post .

& Chris BabyBoy . I love you . I truely does .

2008-04-04T10:11:00.000+08:00

i'm so LUAN right now . i really DON'T wanna say anymore le .

Chris , believe in me . I really won't leave you alone . Just let your heart to believe me this time . Believe me . I let you know what's love . Be it you're poor or not good - looking . It's not what i care . You're the one i really care . I don't mind what others may say or think . I just wanna be with you .

2008-04-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

1. Was your last kiss a mistake?
- Don't know .

2 .Who was the last persons voice you
heard?
- My maid's .

3. What is bothering you right now?
- A lot of things .

4. Have you ever seen somebody get hit
by a car?
- Nope .

5. Who do you tell everything to?
- My closest Girlfriends .

6. Have you ever taken a picture in a
bathroom?
- Yeah . ==''

7. Do you use big words?
- Seldom .

8. Does your head hurt?
- A bit .

9. Favorite number?
- I don't know .

10. When was the last time you saw
your Father?
- Yesterday .

11. Name a lyric from the song youre
listening to?
- I don't know . It's in jap .

12. Do you use your friends?
- Nope , never does .

13. Do you fight with your parents
often?
- Nope .

14. Where is the shirt youre wearing
from?
- From my sec sch .

15. Do you have to check in with your
parents before you go someplace?
- Yeah . ==''

16. Do you know anyone with cancer?
- Yeah .

17. Do you have any picture frames in
your room?
- Of course .

18. Where did you spend Christmas?
- Alone @ home .

19. Ever smoked a cigarette?
- Yeah . ==''

20. Do you get good grades?
- Nope .

21. Have you ever thought about
getting your nose pierced?
- Nope .

22. Does a kiss make you feel better?
- Depends .

23. Have you ever passed out on the
bathroom floor?
- Once .

24. Do you start the water before you
get in the shower or when you get in?
- When i get in .

25. Would you rather be in a permanent
relationship or play the field?
- Permanent Relationship .

26. What did you accomplish today?
- Nothing much .

27. Who were your last 6 texts from?
- Sex Partner :X

28. Who has the ability to hurt you
most?
- HIM , Willie Aw Jiahao <3

29. Have you ever smoked pot?
- Lol ? Don't understand .

31.Last time you consumed alcohol?
- Not long ago .

32.What were you doing at 8:00 this
morning?
- Sleeping .

33.What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- Mapling . :X

34.Last place you took a plane to?
- Thailand . When i was Pri 4 ba .

35.Have you ever been around someone
who was high?
- Always does .

36. Do you like your life as of now?
- Not really .

37.Last thing you purchased?
- Ciggs ?

38.Have you ever drank with your
number one?
- Yeah :D

39.Where are you right now, and how do
you feel about where you are?
- Home , and sleepy . ==''

40.Three words to explain why you last
threw up?
- Too fucking drunk .

41.Hows your heart lately?
- It's breaking up soon .

42.Where did your last hug take place?
- In public .

43.Ever kissed someone who smokes?
- Yeah .

45.Are you a jealous person?
- Surely .

46.Did you have a good birthday last
year?
- Nope .

47.Are you tired right now?
- Damn tired .

48.What are your outlooks on
gay/bisexual relationships?
- Accept as who they are .

49. Do you chew on your straws?
- Yeah .

50.Have you ever been called a tease?
- Don't know .

51.Last friendster message from?
- Don't know who the person is .

2008-04-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

1. Would you kiss the last person you
kissed , again ?
I sure do wish .

2. Have you told anyone you'd marry
them ?
Of course .

3. Have you ever liked someone so much
that it hurts ?
Yeah . It truely does hurt .

4. Have you ever made a b/f g/f cry?
Yeah .

5. Are you happier single or in a
relationship ?
I'm happy the way i am now .

6. Have you ever told someone you
loved them and didn't mean it ?
Nope .

7. Have you ever had your heart
broken ?
Almost everytime .

8. Have you ever broken someone else's
heart ?
Don't think so .

9. Do you still talk to your exes?
Yeah , quite a number of them .

10. last time you kissed ?
Last week .

11. If you could go back in time and
change things, would you ?
Probably .

12. Do you think you are a good bf/gf?
I know i sure am .

13. Do you believe everyone deserves a
second chance ?
Yeah .

14. Have u ever liked anyone else's
bf/gf ?
Certainly .

15. Like anyone right now ?
Willie Aw JiaHao <3

17. Does that person like you back ?
I don't know .

18. What are you going to do tonight ?
Close my eyes & sleep .

19. How do you feel right now ?
Mixed feelings .

21. Have you ever been kissed upside
down ?
Yeah ~ On bed . :X

22. What would you like to say to one
person on your mind?

2008-04-03T04:46:00.000+08:00

"Who was your last?"

1. had beer with?
Yaomin laopo .

2 .Went to the movies with?
Family .

3.Went to the mall with?
Girlfriend .

4.Talked on the phone with?
Sista .

5. Made you laugh?
Willie (:

6. You hugged?
Girlfriend .

WOULD YOU RATHER...?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
Nose .

2.Be serious or be funny?
Funny .

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
Whole .

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
Shot .

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1.Sun or moon?
Sun .

2. Winter or Fall?
Winter .

3. Left or right?
Left .

4. Sunny or rainy?
Rainy .

5. Peach or Pear?
Peach .

6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl .

7. Do You Cook?
Seldom .

8. Current mood?
Sleepy .

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone?
Yeah .

2. Sang?
Of course .

3. Been hugged?
Yeah !

4. Danced Crazy?
Nopes . :X

5. Cried?
Just .

2008-04-03T04:42:00.000+08:00

1. Honestly what color is your shirt?
- Yellow .

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
- Willie .

3. Honestly, what have u done yesterday?
- At home the whole day .

4. Honestly, have you ever been in love?
- Yes & still is now !

5. Honestly, feeling anything unusual today?
- Nope .

6. Honestly, is your heart still occupied?
- By HIM . (:

7. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Sista .

8. Honestly , are you jealous of somebody right now?
- Yeah .

9. Honestly, what makes you sad most of the time?
- Everything .

10. Honestly, are you LOVING someone right now?
- Willie Aw JiaHao . (:

11. Honestly , what don't you want in life?
- Tears .

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- WILLIE . <3 I MISS YOU .

13. Honestly, any plans in near future?
- Hopefully can get into poly after my nitec .

14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
- HIM . (:

15.Honestly, does anyone like you?
- Hope Willie does .

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
- Spam a lot of vulgarities .

2 . What's the worst things you've done when you were mad?
- Tried to slap someone i don't know .

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- Yeah .

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
- Does it everytime .

5. When was the last time you really cried?
- Just .

6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- Of course .

7. What usually makes you cry?
- Relationships .

8. Are you normally a happy person?
- A crazy person to be exact .

9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
- Of course .

10. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
- Maybe (:

2008-04-03T04:37:00.000+08:00

was so boring . MAPLE & AUDI don't interest me anymore . so , i decided to try FRIENDSTER'S SURVEY . :X

NO LYING QUIZ:
1. last beverage: Plain Water .
2. last phone call: Sista .
3. last time you cried: Just .
4. last text message to: Sex Partner :X

FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. dated someone twice: Yeah .
2. kissed someone & regretted it: Certainly .
3. lost someone special: Of course .
4. been depressed: Almost everytime .
5. been drunk and threw up: Quite a number of times .

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
- Pink .
- White .
- Red .

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:

1. Made a new friend: Had been everyday .

2. Laughed until you cried: Sure do !

3. Met someone who changed your life: Yeah .

4. Found out who your true friend is: Knew it all along .

5. Is there something you want to tell someone: Willie , I love you .

6. How many kids do you want to have: 2 .

7. Do you have any pets: Nope .

8. Do you wanna change your name: I LOVE MY NAME . <3

9. What did you do yesterday: Rotting at home .

10. Last time you had pizza: Last month .

11. What time did you wake up: 9 plus . :D

12. What were you doing at 10:30 a.m.:Playing Audi .

13. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Catch a movie with dear . <3

14. Last time you saw your father: Yesterday .

15. What is one thing you wish you could change from ur life: Everything .

16. What are you listening to right now : Heavenly Days .

17. Have you ever talked to Tom And Jerry?: I did ! In my dreams . (:

18. Who's getting on your nerves right now: Fucking ANEGO .

19. Most visited webpage: My blog . (: <3

20. Coke or Pepsi: Both . xD

21. Have you seen anyone naked in the past few week: Myself . =_=''

2008-04-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

i'm so FUCKING boring sia . so , i decided to play back MAPLE . :X currently playing EVILSINN & XBABYMIILK . xD helping JASON SISTA to train nor . cos i'm really too fucking BORING at home . but , with MAPLE , i'm still so boring .

this saturday , gonna start FIRST training for NDP . don't know what time will be back home . but i promise , i'll try to take MANY pictures . :X so , prepare to FEAST your eyes . xD & , i suddenly feel like eating DONUTS . lol .

& i suddenly feel like learning COOKING ! & how i hope , to be able to let BAICHI be the first to test it . :X hope he don't LAOSAI . :X

& Dear , i love you so much . Happy 1st Month Anniversary .

2008-04-01T03:40:00.000+08:00

LOL . i realise something yesterday after i updated my blog . i FORGOT to blog what i've done the WHOLE day . ==''

well , the previous night , i slept at 3AM and woke up at 6AM in the morning . why wake up so EARLY ? cos , i going sao mu with my parents . but , that was god damn EARLY . i sat in my uncl's PICK-UP . it was so damn fucking HOT that day . we first went to MANDAI . it wasn't really so bad at first . but when we're heading towards CHOACHUKANG , that's the main problem . it started a huge traffic jam starting all the way from JALAN BAHAR . of course , we join in the jam - ing . and for GOODNESS SAKE . we jam - ed for more then 2 HOURS . when we're coming out , we're TRAPPED for another 2 HOURS . that was damn TIRING okays . we set off at 8AM and we reached home at 4PM . ==''

& i swear i won't let myself get caught in TRAFFIC JAMS anymore .

2008-03-31T13:37:00.000+08:00

well , i've been thinking for the past few DAYS of what am i gonna blog about . as EXPECTED , my mind's BLANK . :X okays , i think , i shall get STARTED my updates . ==''

well , time FLIES . it's been ONE year plus since he left me on the 16th of FEB . i don't know why . the MORE i wanna open my heart and accept OTHER guys , the more i found my heart flying back to HIM . it's as if , the LOVE that we've shared . had been only YESTERDAY . & i really don't want HIM to leave . sighs ` but , he still LEFT .

God , why must you make a fool out of me ? Why must you cruely take away what's belonged to me in the past ? & why don't you return him to me ? Please , don't take him away from me , & i need him . I really do .

& , how i wanna you to find your way back to my heart .

2008-03-29T08:47:00.000+08:00

well , i'm back from my chalet . actually , i was back YESTERDAY . the chalet was the WORST one i've ever been . they dare to call it CLASS chalet when they invited so many OUTSIDERS . and we've paid our $$ and what we've get ? NOTHING ! so naturally , there's no PICTURES to post . i was really too ANGRY to take any pictures . okays , enough of the CHALET . now on to SOMETHING that's caught my attention recently . (:

had watched The Sky Love for 10 times today . and i never fails to TEAR everytime i watched it . and i ADMIT . i really do ENVY those couples we see on the streets everywhere . so , why don't those PERFECT fairytales happen on me ? it PAINS my heart to let him go . even if we're to THINK of the past and ENJOY the moments we've spent together , EVERYTHING's not gonna be the same as it is . & it PAINS my heart to see you CRYING in the middle of the night . but not for ME , instead , another girl who had CAPTURE his heart . & how i really WISH , he'll be back in my arms SOMEDAY .

& , it's just a fantasy of my own wishful part .

2008-03-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

somehow , i find myself lazy to update my blog . =='' by the way , i've found my passion back to audition ! :X & i love my boyfriend , -XIAOHEIx3~ . :X well , i'm going for my chalet soon and i'm lazy to update more . :X shall update a long entry once i'm back from my chalet . & i'm gg for one day only . =='' so i'll update again on friday ! with pictures of my bbq . (:

Happy 17th Birthday , My Dearest Girlfriend . <3

2008-03-26T08:36:00.000+08:00

well , as expected . the changes of the weather made me sick once more . all thanks to you , god . i nearly missed my class chalet . luckily it was postponed to thursday . so , i may be able to attend it . i'll take pictures that will flood my digital camera ! :X but seriously , i hate taking pictures . =='' guess i'll be so busy EATING throughout the bbq . :X who cares ?! as long as i have fun . well , i'm tired from eating the medicine . gonna catch my BEAUTY sleep now . :X

2008-03-24T13:03:00.000+08:00

Me : " eh turtle , i ask you ar . you got girlfriend de ar ? "

Him : " Hmmm mei you...why..? "

Me : " o.o then your blog that laopo ? "

Him : " a....gan lao po lai de ._.so not count ar real.. "

Me : " o.o i see . 白担心一场 =='' "

Him : " Hahas...huh why cai dan xin.?wat u mean orhhs...? "

Me : " hmms , actually . The better i know you , the more i realise what an amazing person you are . I've really grown to like you a lot . "

Him : " o.o a...like me as wat...i also like u as fren:) "

Me : " i don't really know you pretend not to know or you really don't know . i just wanna get this off my mind and tell you how i really feel . so , the results don't really matter to me . (: i can only say , i feel a lot much better to get it off my load . (: "

Him : " Ohh...but hopefully i wanna be alone for time being...since sku and cca and mani more stress me out le...hmmm but for sure theres more boy better den me for sure..:) "

Me : " really , if that's the problem . waiting's not a problem for me . so no matter what you gonna say or do , it won't change my decision . (: i can only say that , i truely wishes you all the best . "

Him : " Hmmm don wait for me...as i think base on my situation now not fit to hav one...u will find someone better de:) "

Me : " really , i don't mind . you can don't like me like i do . but you can't stop me from liking you . "

Him : " Hmmm..but realli...i won't force...but i shall sure theres someone u will find someday hav the same feeling u treat him and he will treat u:) "

Me : " okay . enough of all these . my house's flooding soon . "

and right after i sent that last message , i cried like i saw my boyfriend died in front of my eyes . probably we're not really meant to be .

2008-03-24T02:31:00.000+08:00

well . yesterday , i decided to tell terance how i really feel . expected , he rejected me . but that's not the main point . i've already decided to wait for him . x) even if he's not gonna like me as much as i like him , nothing's gonna change how i feel about him . it's probably kind of silly of me . waiting for a guy who's not going to turn back and smile at me . his smile and everything is what catched my heart . if i'm gonna let go of this wonderful guy in front of me , i curse myself to not to be able to smile like i used to be .

TERANCE is loved .

2008-03-23T06:01:00.000+08:00

it's been quite a time since i last updated . had been kind of rotting recently . cos , holidays are here ! it's 3 weeks long . :D and nxt week , kinda tied up wif my class chalet . xD well , been playing quit lots of games recently . comp's gonna BOMB lerh . :X well well well . hoping , that guy's reading dis post . so i dont haf to master all my courage to tell him . TERANCE NEO JUNYANG , i love ue . x)

for maplers :

anione interested in lv 135 naked bishop & lv 123 dark knight , visit here .

2008-03-18T05:16:00.000+08:00

captions are eaten by mie . :X

2008-03-18T04:21:00.000+08:00

sighs `

now at sch uhs . having ina lesson . but , my whole mind's all occupied uhs . just duno wad's going on . how i wish i could throw everything behind mie and start everything anew . if he could just threw every memories we shared and start anew wif a new gal , den whie carnt i ? it's just too hard for mie to leave everything . it pains my heart to see the guy i love in another gal's arms . wadever that's been said or done are past . he threw awae a 3 years relationship and he threw mie awae . the past we shared , is merely trash to him in his eyes . no matter wad happens in the future , i still carnt let go of wad happened 2 years ago . starting anew seems impossible animore . how i wish i could rule my heart rather den the other wae round . i wanna start my life anew wif WILLIE . i wanna love him like the wae i noe he will . probably , WILLIE will gif mie up before i do . x(

& i truly long for ure love .

2008-03-16T05:01:00.000+08:00

sighs `

okays , i admit uhs . i really carnt let go of wad happened 2 years ago . i just carnt believe that he could just throw our 3 years of relationship aside and start anew wif a new gal . he claimed that he knew mie . he claimed that he understands mie . he claimed that he misses mie . he claimed that he loves mie . & he claimed that he needs mie . although there's dis wonderful guy here for mie and i truely love him . & i really swore . i'll love him wif all i haf . although it's hard to forget wad i've been thru , i believe . WILLIE is all i need .

& the nite is long ; but i long for ue .

2008-03-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

sighs `

i'm really so so so so fcuking fan . wad for i'm hanging on to a memory that died off 2 years ago . it really hurts my heart to see him sad . i just carnt close my eyes to tell myself that he isn't the one i care . all these years , i've been longing for his return . but , even if he returned , who's gonna pay for the 2 years we've lost ? how i wish , that 3 years would never ends . our 5 years of relationship . 3 years of couples and 2 years of pure strangers . i've told myself , everythings's over . he dont love mie now . but wad's the use ? i find myself waking up in the middle of the nite crying my eyes out . apologizing's nort enuff to make up the 2 years i've lost . just wad wrong haf i done ? whie must he treated mie in die wae . how i wish , i could turn back the time .

FCUKOFF .